I like living alone...

I like not having to make conversation. I like that I can take as many naps as I feel like taking, and nobody knows.

I like it because nobody complains. I am seldom lonely. I have three dogs, twelve grandchildren, and four grown kids. I have a good friend, who now and then drives down with his dog.

We are known each other so long, that we don't have to talk, and when we do we don't have to say anything.

When my friend asks me if I would like to take a trip around the world, I can say yes, knowing I will never have to go.

I am smug. I am probably insufferable.

And then, the telephone rings.

The last time, I saw this person was 40 years ago when he was 20, and I was 19. I was a foot and a half taller than he was. He remembers looking up at me wanting to say, " you are beautiful, you are gorgeous," but all that came out of his mouth was " you are tall".

He wants to come for a visit.

I am nervous.

He is in love with a 19 years old girl. Now I am almost sixty. How can I lose fifty pounds in two weeks?

I do not want to fall in love, but I want to see what happens if I do. I don't know if want to be filled with love or longing, or desire, those emotional states I once pursued, but now think of it as a distraction from life rather than life itself.

I hate this feeling, I love this feeling,

The last time I painted was a long time ago.

People brought me odds and ends of glass, storm windows, and windshields, and I painted until I ran away from my husband and took my three little kids to the other place, where instead of painting, instead of poems, I concentrated on finding another man.

So I am thinking.

I am out of danger. I can do what I want, my hair a wild tangle, and my face was unwashed. I am free to fling myself out of bed in the middle of the night and run downstairs to do silly things...

Why should I change?

This story is just fiction, but I am sure, many women said: It's my life. And you are over 50? I am not sure.

The question is set up.

What do we do with our chisels, paintbrushes, voices, and stories?

We create life, nurture and decorate it but ultimately we transform it. Yes, we can do it, and I want you and your friends and their friends to understand, that YOU CAN CHANGE.

That is why I love " His Secret Obsession" by James Bauer, who is a relationship coach, and author. He is helped thousands of women to solve their relationship problems and understand why things happen.

Click here for a link.

Here are a few words by - Lewis Howes

  • Stay positive.

  • Forgive others.

  • Invest in yourself.

  • Trust your instincts.

  • Lead with an open heart.

  • Don't let others ruin your day.

  • Do things that bring you joy.

  • Be of service to humanity.

  • Find your soul tribe.

  • Love Yourself.

Everybody deserves happiness.

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